Wow it's been so long since I've posted anything.Well I could just say I was busy but that wouldn't be the entire truth. Yes, I've been busy but I've also been running away from reality...I almost didn't want to face myself, and that's what I'm supposed to do when I write..right?
A lot has happened, details of which I'd much rather leave out...but I'm sure the ones who care will figure out by the end of this post...
I'm strangely relaxed...it's been long since I've been driven to tears just for the sake of love. My pillow now remains dry at night. I don't know helplessness anymore. No longer do I have to worry about begging someone not to spoil my few moments of joy. I'm certain I'll be abandoned a lot lesser now. I will no longer be told that I'm inferior. I'm fearless now. No more begging to be heard. I shall never be asked to shut up when I need to speak out. The phone will never be hung up intentionally when I do speak out. I wont always have to think before I speak. Consequences wont be half as bad. I wont miss sarcasm. Mockery will not be missed either. Apologies will be heard more often. Happiness will have multiple factors rather than a constant. Self respect isn't lost anymore. I found it in courage. I'm making changes happen. Quick.

Yes,a lot shall be missed in a good way. But, life has too much too offer and I don't intend to miss out anymore.