This year

2009.

This is the year I’ll never forget. If I could squeeze in some drama, I’d tell you that this is the year that has changed me forever. Such has been the impact. This year I've lost more friends than I’ve made. I’ve learnt to hate and tell people I hate them…I’ve forgotten how to tell the ones I love, that, I love them. I’ve learnt too much restraint for my own good.

I still haven’t learnt to lie with a straight face. Some things should never change :).

I've had my heart broken and trampled over only to burn with a stubborn desire to love. Though not happily, but I have learnt to try not to hold things to my heart…it hurts lesser or maybe my heart’s too numb, who knows! 2009 has been witness to the kind of love I never knew existed. Yet, this year will be the year I’ve craved for love the most. I don’t think that’s something I’ll put myself through ever again. I’ve come to accept that it isn’t anybody’s fault that I don’t have faith in them. I don’t understand faith too well. The day I do, I’ll welcome it with open arms.

This year I’ve lost something I never had. I’ve lamented, regretted and wished I could turn back time and do things differently. I’ve learnt that some damages are irreparable…and that some losses are irreplaceable.

It’s been a tough year, this 2009. This is the first year that I’ve lived away from home…learnt to cook and clean and be good at it! It sounds quite trivial, I know, but it is undoubtedly one of the most important things I've learnt. If I may brag a bit (since it is my blog!)…some of my friends here have told me that some of the dishes I make are better than what they get back home. I also baked a fruit cake this Christmas that people mistook for a store bought cake….oh the pride! :)

This year has reinforced one solid belief in my life – I have kickass friends! If you guys are reading this (and you know who you are!), I want you to know that you guys have given me all the strength I needed, whenever I needed it. I love you all so very much!

It is not so much a belief as it is a fact…I have a beautiful, loving family and there is absolutely nothing more important to me than them. I’m certain that’s something that won’t change either.

It’s been a roller coaster…this 2009…