Confession

Last day of the year and I’m in a state of confusion. I don’t want to be. I want to snap right out of it and feel alive. I feel guilty for some things I’ve done and yet I’m too angry, too stubborn to apologize for my mistakes. I feel like I’m doing the wrong thing, then again I know I’m doing it for the right cause…
This is my battle…my battle to be understood by the people I love the most. I’m tired of being misunderstood…tired of swallowing my pain so as not to hurt one of you. I want to have the rights to feel upset without being made to feel selfish. I get hurt, I’m human. To protect my pride, I will attack yours. Forgive me for that.
My only wish for the New Year would be that my loved ones see through my anger and see what it is that I’m actually feeling. I know it seems like I’m angry at you most of the times…well, I’m not. I’m only hurt and confused because I don’t know how to tell you.