Shadow

Ever present, effervescent presence -

You linger long after you’re gone,

Leaving a fiery trail of emptiness,

Heartstrings tugged at and undone.

You remain – untouched and unmoved,

You stay hidden behind a violet veil;

You watch, observe carefully

As I wither away and become frail.

You match every step,

You know my every move;

Undeterred by ignorance,

You’re a constant I cannot elude.

Consumed by hatred,

You’re driven by greed;

Severed as I lie in your path,

Satisfied, you watch me bleed.

You stay long after I’m gone;

Silent…placid…content,

You blend in with the void…

You’re poison, a sedative scent.

You’re a stubborn stain,

A constant, nagging reminder,

You’re a scar that refuses to fade,

A memory that won’t be blurred.

You prosper with fear,

You feed off my weakness…

Evidence of my crude existence,

You’re an insatiable darkness.

Home, Happiness and Happy Birthday :)

Guess who's back home :)

Anyway, my little sister turned 17 today. So our youngest sister and I decided to bake her a cake instead of getting one from the pastry shop. It was sooo much fun!! You guys have to see this...

Here's the birthday girl about to cut the cake (ater being smothered by chocolate icing from the cake her friends got). I know, I know...I have to work on the icing!

Ta-da!

And here is a cross section of the cake. Believe it :)

Anyone wants a piece? :)

P.S. The uper layer had purple too...wonder where it disappeared!

Update: The purple has been found :))

R.I.P

You selfish prick. I just told you someone I knew DIED and all you care about is that I’m not talking to you??!

It doesn’t matter that I didn’t know her too well, it doesn’t even matter that she wasn’t my favourite person. I just can’t wrap my head around the fact that she’s gone. She seemed like she had everything going for her…pretty girl, talented, ambitious – she knew exactly what she wanted out of life when most of us were still aimless. What could have gone so wrong that she felt the need to end her life?

Yes, I’m grateful for all that I have in life and no matter how difficult things get, I never lose track of all my blessings. There’s a lot of joy and there are a lot of heartaches. Life isn’t perfect. I don’t know if my problems will get any better or worse…I don’t know if I’ll be loved the way I want to be loved or if I’ll ever love back the way I imagine it in my mind…I don’t know how my life will be 5 years…10 years down the line…if I’ll be happy. And tonight for the first time in my life, not knowing frightens me.

May your soul rest in peace P.